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Know Sear Bliss? Good band...

If you really, really can't sleep, why not make an advantage out of it and try out to switch to the uberman rhythm. You're a zombie anyway, so why not make use of the situation, you can't lose anything. Uberman rhythm: 4 hours awake, 30 minutes sleep --> Repeat again. You have to stick to the rhythm though ... which makes it impractical when you have a job for example. I have never tried this in its seriousness ... but when I have insomnia, I trick my body into actually trying to go for this polyphasic sleep thing, but then don't wake after 30 minutes once I am asleep ... thus double-tricking myself with my ability to fail -- the trick already worked.

Yes, the whiteness surely played a role, but when I'm in a white room or staying at white walls, they are nowhere as strong ... so I think the heartbeat / blood pressure does also play a big role. By the way, sometimes, out of nowhere there appears a small spot in my field of vision that looks like when somebody has pointed a flashlight there. That thing stays for a while and after some time it goes back to normal. Hmmm ... I don't think a sedative would be good. I think I faded and almost passed out because something sedated me ... I suspect that the drug they put into my eye somehow travelled along the bloodstream into the brain or something like that... Calming down was not possible. I actually was calm ... but it was like my eye took control over me -- I was not able to control it and make it stay still. The feeling of this glass sphere touching the skin on my pupil was unbearable to me.

Hey, thank you a lot for this thread ... I have this too and I never was quite able to put it into words. I talked to my optometrist (is that an eye doctor, isn't it?) about it about two years ago and she made me make a "blind spot" test ... don't know a better name. It involved looking into a screen where tiny dots were illuminated from time to tome and you had to press a button when you see one ... nothing unusual came out in that test. Further investigaions on my eyes had to be cancelled because I was hyper sensitive. I was passing out very nearly once as they came close with objects to my eye (that's the reason doctors gave me although I blame it on the narcotic they squirted into the eye) ... and another doctor in the hospital couldn't make a certain examination which involved touching a sphere onto my eye which wasn't possible, I couldn't cooperate, not even as I wanted, the eye kept twitching once he went near. I have visual snow and floaters very often. Thanks for the terminology! I do also have some different type of the "snow" though ... it looks like tiny orange dots with a black dot in the middle of each, can't describe it better. Oddly, these things were the worst recently as I was skiing in the snow, I saw them all everywhere. Maybe it has to do with blood pressure, when it is higher these things are even more visible. I seem to be quite sensitive to light such as camera flashes and that aswell ... just two days ago I basically suffered from this again as I was on a party and they had these strong beam lights circling all over the place, I was basically playing hide and seek with the "algorithm" that controlled these lights, I had to because I hated when the light would struck my eyes.

For music discussion, I'd pick Psynews. For party dates/details and chit-chat, Goabase is always a good pick. Other than that, maybe it helps when you state where you're from. I know for example tanzgemein.de, german forum, not active there though...

The money makes the undergoing with the whisky more understandable. By the way, an interesting choice you made there as your "prize" ... I didn't even yet have one of these myself, even though I heard from numerous sides that it's an excellent dram; issue years don't seem to matter so much... Anyway, these are too expensive for me.

Merry Xmas to you all -- I hope the festivities were great. Mine were very good, so far Ahem. Well done sir and I admit I do have a fair bit of respect at the timing you set there, but you could have had gotten sloshed way cheaper than with this rather expensive luxury single malt ... yes, it may be not one of the most expensive, but what that thing was, is still considered a luxury beverage and rather not meant to be savoured in the way of flushing a liter of it down your throat in a quarter of an hour. I do drink a Glenlivet in a quarter of an hour too -- but that timing is per dram... Anyway, to each his own I guess.

That oddly reminds me of a girl I used to know, didn't see her anymore since a year or so -- unfotrunately, because I do like her as a friend, in fact (And I mean, a friend. No sexual thing.)... I made the great "toilet grabber" (meaning, methaphorically, trying to grab something, but in fact reaching into a toilet) concerning my relation to her: I told her that I feel something for her. I can only tell you, that was a bad mistake. Doesn't connect. I mean, I didn't get slapped or anything ... but in fact she didn't want, at all, wants no man's affection (and no woman's either obviously). A shitty grip for both of us obviously. The attitude wasn't the same anymore after that, of nobody of us two. And I, in fact, may seem to have destroyed the relation. I have never met a girl better (not farther, but better) out in space, mentally. She was similar to the descripton you gave. Not grown up. And she wasn't even so beautiful, but to me she seemed likeable as hell and that was what counted for me. She had an artsy side too, but under developed, not mature. Likeable though. Likeable as hell... Anyway, I think it's a "toilet grabber" no matter what you do in these cases. Do nothing and you will get nothing, only unsatisfied. Better bring up the facts and tell her, then "harvest" the awkwardness and move on. You'll at least sleep better.

Oh god I really hate planning parties. I just sent the invitation mail with closed eyes and the whispered sentence "I'm gonna open a bottle of whisky after I press send, I'm gonna open a bottle of whisky after I press send, I'm gonna open a bottle of whisky after I press send!" So you know what I'm doing right now

That drawing is seriously good. I thought it was an old photo. Other than that, I'm currently procrastinating planning my birthday party...

I come late to this conversation, but I think the other people are right, Radi. You shouldn't spread so much information about your feelings toward her, also pictures ... as of now it might be okay, but you don't know if this might not fall back at you one later day, for whatever reason. I admit that I too looked at her picture ... and it seems like a nice girl to me. I would just say go for it and become her friend, it might be good for both of you. And I mean "friend" in the broadest way here ... not necessary with the love thing, you know -- meaning: don't focus on that if it stresses you. Don't worry too much about seeing her "invisible", maybe one day you'll get the reason why it is like that. It might even be some deeper connection, that in this "invisibility" you see some kind of an emotional problem she has or whatever -- one which only people with your kinda craziness regarding obsession with "weird" (in my eyes) details can see... I hope I said this with enough charme, you know ... I mean you both seem to be freaky in some way and maybe you fit together. But only you can do the check up...

Thank you for the news, gentlemen! Itunes has this release aswell and I still have a voucher card lying around somewhere, so I will get this one...

I hope it works for everybody meanwhile. In case some of you still surf plain http (redirection didn't work seamless with IE at first), best would be to update bookmarks if you want to enjoy the new secure one... I say a big thanks to Mars that he implemented this, I probably wouldn't have been able to the way he did because the part to configure the board that it doesn't fall back to http seemed quite tricky!

The little bit unfortunate event is, that the proof that Thomas Vitali is behind Psynina is now gone because the registration period for domain "psynina.com" has ended... Who? Thomas? The NHJO? Or maybe ... Thomas = NHJO :ph34r: ...

Good to hear you seem to be well. It's the same here. I haven't visited any psy party in a while ... tend to be worked out at the weekends, plus my girlfriend is also not the type that goes out so much -- and I find that good... I definitely didn't stop going to parties but it has to be a really good night that I am motivated to get moving. Right now I'm waiting for the heating to warm up because I want to take a shower before going to bed.

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Oh dear god. Seriously ... this would have been one of the last places I would have expected this name to be mentioned. And, frankly, also one of the last threads I would have expected it to happen in. I don't know whether to cry or laugh about this Actually I just wanted to pop by and drop a hello to the mr. HYENNRO Learn goodly india language you become great track maker = आप महान ट्रैक निर्माता बनने सुडौल भारत भाषा सीखें

Hi Janet, how's it going? I'm relaxing from a two-day meeting the company had in the south of Austria... ...and I combine that with the goal "try being here more" and reading up on some threads

I found this one today:

I have to say, this post by Halusinaatio about the infrasound, is interesting... By coincidence, I found out this saturday, that noise in general has a big impact on my stress level. I had some earplugs in my pocket that I took from the manufacturing hall at work ... and on that saturday my stress was so bad I couldn't even ride the tube without getting nervous in some form, I felt really uncomfortable... and after I put the plugs into my ears it all suddenly was so good, so calm. The noise of the train was much lower, the talking of the people was far away suddenly, the crying of the kids was a bit louder but still way more bearable than without plugs... I managed well that day... With the earplugs, I can also hear my own breathing and that is very comforting. Also it helps calm down my breathing for when I register it being fast, I try to slow it down more. Maybe earplugs help you too? Just be careful that you don't overhear something important when walking... And don't wear them too long or going without will be even less bearable. I hundred percent agree with the people recommending excercise by the way! Already said my thoughts about it anyway. And: cool idea about the potion... I am thinking about that aswell lately...

Thanks for the info, I didn't know. And I think the thread sits quite well here...

I used valerian, but this alone makes me not feel so great. A higher dose makes me feel dizzy when I close my eyes and to me it provoked feelings of moving really fast when lying still (difficult to explain) ... and the sleep still didn't come. I found it pleasant only in low doses and in combination with other plants such as passion flower and hops -- then it is quite good though. Magnesium is no real sleep medication to me, I use it for muscle and heart related issues... But there's one more thing I use: amber -- only as incense oil. The incense is relaxing and most of all, after some usage where you manage to sleep to it, it will automatically remind you of sleep. Maybe that's good for you too!

I don't think I can fully relate to your situation, but I felt really badly stressed in the last weeks too ... mainly because an injury immobilized me (dislocated ankle) and I couldn't do any sports at all Sports and workout do a lot. I wasn't even doing so much I'd say, but I never perceived so little being so valuable, to me at least. I still can't run with the ankle and I can't even think about climbing a boulder, I have to be careful with it, but at least I can walk -- or cycle, as I did yesterday. And it is good to feel the movement again. No comparison to some days ago where I almost got a nervous breakdown because my neighbor woke me up with loud TV at night after I finally managed to fall asleep... When you start doing some workout, you'll at least get yourself tired and increase the likelihood of sleeping deeper and better. And you will likely need less of whatever substance you choose for your treatment. When it comes to substances, Pharmacy sells a medication that is a combination of some plant essences -- valerian, hops, passion flower and that ... I like that one a lot and use it frequently. If the plants don't help I normally use diphenhydramine to sleep. And if it all doesn't work, I take a benzo ... only in emergency though. Food should be lots of bananas (you gonna need their energy anyway if you work out) That and easy on the caffeine ... and on the alcohol too (I have cut the Whisky down ).