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Yeah, some people claim it takes just as long to get clean as as long as you were on drugs. But thats not entirely true, although not completely dismissive either. Id say if you do drugs like i did, expect at least 6-7 years in recovery.... Anyway, Buddha is just my loving expression of Cannabis, nothing more. Just a slang for cannabis. But as ive previously stated, my "romance" with cannabis was a short one, about a month or 6 weeks or so, and im now off it again. My last "session" lasted 6 years :/

that was pretty nice. plenty of sample material for a hiphop beat.

Pro is about 500 euro. But honestly, I would even chose the "Artist" version, and that just costs 280 euro.

DMX Legend. At his peak. OWNED N.Y then. Everyone was fuckin with him, except some small street beefs. now though, 15+ years later, well, he aint the same to say the least. but wiki is a good source for bio . anyway, this is like definition of hip hop, amongst about 20 other monsters

Thanks homie <3 and u too

update: Had a massive 3 month opiate withdrawal period with details I wont share in, well, detail. I can just say that during two weeks I could do nothing but lie in bed, stare, not sleep, under 3 covers to hold my heat. i was severely malnurished, and had i not took the last bit of energy left in me and take the train to mom, so i could crash there, so she could give me water, a taste of sandwish, i would surely die if alone at home. I didnt taper either. Didnt take benzos for the sleep deprivation, didnt drink alcohol to feel better, nothing, i took it all sober, the full 3 month of it, and i survived my synapses is now in working order, they make me happy and in good mood when expected, and vice versa. I have no daily anxiety, nor hardly even DP/DR anymore. However, This was in march I fully recovered, so literally weeks ago. I do take lots of meds, and they are helping. They are working wonders, and i do not get the most common side effect of one of them (1/10) increased apitite. for me its the other way around, which is rarer, i get lack of apetite. which i need. cause i need smaller meals often. rather than bingeeat once a day when the Remeron hunger kicks in, which can indeed happen) but eating small meals here and there, fruit there, sandwich there, etc, im good. past month ive been smoking alot of buddha and been loving it. i allowed myself a period of feeling good, after living a nightmare-anxiety for 3 months (although the monster anxiety which held me awake staring blankly for 10+ hours on end, lasted about 3 weeks) I also drink a few 3.5% alc beer a day, cause i feel i need it. so in a way im still addicted to alcohol. however, going from 7x 10,2% per day down to 4-5 at most 3,5% is a literal 40kg body weight in difference. I was 133 and went down to 91 over a period of 20 months. Now back up at 100. Im 187cm. Well, just an update for those interested. Peace! 10/10 as outro for the thread as it is extremely fitting.

Yes. And Im so used to cubase/nuendo that I just cant/wont try anything else :/ And ive tried many but just thought "why change something that i know 100%" just that the version i have sucks, and its cracked, i would like to BUY the latest Cubase.. But im too ashamed to start a collection for it considering I have it good compared to most of the world.

^ looks like IM- the gathering on a different acid trip

I dualbooted so i now have to os. win7 and win10. i had to upgrade to 10 though, for very many reasons, although i consider 7 much superior. just turning off all spying tools preinstalled takes forever. still the version i have is from 2006 so it doesnt even support multicore so my cpu which is 6core, struggles with big projects :/

Back in 2003 I was in party mode. It was everything. Speed, benzos, booze, acid, e, hasch. I had just bought the O2 midi keyboard and just started to learn reason for real. This is the 10th or so beat I tried to do, using the midi keyboard and reason. This beat I did at my friends small apartment, in headphones of shitty quality, on a laptop, on a couch, with the O2 in my lap. 45 min later, my friend stepped in the "booth" (his closet with a borrowed Condenser mic using a simple mic-amp NO MIXER just my sound interface with XLRs Anyway, I asked him to stop and go back all the time, cause he didnt rap in the same tone as the beat. I said "darker ! sadder! fit the key of the track man!! trust me gonna be epic!" You know how kids are. And we were kids at 21, most definately. Anyway, this thing came together at the end, and while the sounds (kick, snare etc) are all Horrible Reason 3.0 stock sounds, horrible mixing, (Everything was mixed inside Reason 3.0 even the vocals, and I had to move the long vocal"bar" mm, per mm, to synch it correctly. I know, completely whack. But it turned out okay anyway for some reason.... I did my best to Re-Master an allready mastered mp3. at 128kbit. Cause I lost the original Reason project file. Luckily the RMS of the mp3 was around -10dbfs so I had some headroom to fix at least some of the things. Anyway, again, for the third time, the story he tells, is a story I share 100% with him brotherly. We went to the same things, did the same things, and were best friends from the first day we met until about, I dunno 10 years later... Here is the translation. I translated it rhyme for rhyme, but I didnt rhyme in english cause... well, that wouldnt work. So its just a translation. I hope you can keep up so it makes sense somewhat, I didnt add timecodes and adding lyrics to a video in Sony Vegas takes like, the longest time in the world and didnt wanna do that. enjoy the wav (much better bass for some reason) or settle with the youtube. http://www.aeap.se/ftp/mc-droger.wav (for best quality dont play thru browser, DL and play on your player. Differnt sound believe me. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Te5lc_myzE4 (headphones prefferred - thought the stereo imaging of his voice was cool back then) mac one verse full story ---- im about to tell ya a story about a dude who lost his gloria dont ask me where or when, but heres how it starts sometime in my teens, we were young and dumb the troubles were heavy, we just wanted to stay high not much mattered when we wandered the different paths we didnt have any insight to our own well being almost the rest just wanted to party, we were trying it all now its been several years and im asking myself how am i doing im standing right here at 22 years of age more than once, people you know, even your closest friends ask you if youre retarded, what drug are you on, can you differ a dog and a cat and if day or night a little question btw, did you have fun at the party, you mustve been high you were pretty fucked up still the same, so my usual answer, yeah i know, i was pretty drunk, and mingled with the people and talked about a bunch on nonsense and now that i think about it, feels kinda stupid, that what i previously considered cool i now dont then a little devil popped up, sat inside my ear and whispered a couple of words i hardly wanted to hear here, have this E, swallow fuck the conscience, crushed and swallowed had an euphoric experience hardly recognized time nor space, just enjoyed the moment finally i cave in and i slept, my head is kinda sore, i flow into a lucid dream, where i sat in a cave playing russian roulette with the reaper, he told me to stop using drugs, i said fuck you my chest i feel pressure, woke up in a haste, with a head filled with fucked up thoughts, shit my heart is palpitating, is there noone that can understand, how i feel, after all these years i wanna rip out my hair stand on steady ground yet addiction calls, was in my blood under a long time, i dont wanna live in misery with sorrow and troubles time to end this fucked up carrier dont call me a junkie ive started to live healthier i get asked all the time, is it fun to do drugs? who the fuck do you think you are just cus i smoked and took e, answer is obvious, u wanna keep ur head time gets twisted, you drug yourself retarded, either braincells empty out or you become insane drugs have ability to manipulate your memory, confuse your mind in its own little way its own little ways so a wrong easily becomes a right will you still think its cool to take drugs when you wake up in agony, and twist and turn in pain? thought so you seem like ur with me take responsibility for yourself and pick up the pieces and put them back together noone else runs ur path, only you, so make thinks better youre living here and now, just keep struggling cause its not gonna be easy you gonna notice in the end, it payed off to do right im out, im quitting what is the meaning of making your own grave

Yeah thats cause ive seen just the bad side of benzos. My own addictions to them, I mean, in the year 2006 where I started getting the sober and "real" panic-attacks, and I thought I was going insane cause I didnt know what a panic attack was - I think I ate about 20.000 rohypnol pill over a period of 12 months. Thats an average of 50 pills a day. And sadly, I dont think that even covers it. Sometimes I remember I could eat 200 pills at once. Tolerance...... And people around me, of course, drinking and taking benzos, having blackouts, and during these blackouts they have kicked the living hell out of people, cut up themselves, robbed stores, etc. Thats my, sadly, twisted biased view on benzos. But yes, like I said in my introduction, most people do NOT have any problems with benzos and it IS a fantasticly beautiful medication if you are lucky enough to just have to take it once in a while. Like my sister whoi is anti-drugs, she takes Diazepam 5mg "as needed" and she takes them exactly that, and I think she takes them 2-3 times a week. Even once a day or even twice would be ok for her I think, without causing addiction. She is so strongly against it beforehand. So Ive seen that good side, too.

if u fuck with heavy beats where album is focused around the beats rather than the raps (which are awesome btw) then any true hiphop head gonna fuck with this album Block McCloud - Four Walls its one of the best to come out in the 2010s! A track to start you off with but the album is str8 classics from start to finish trust me. Sure, a few tracks kinda not fit that classic status but there are so few it doesnt bother me to skip them when listening. and ive been a hiphop head fucking 20 years bruh nigga is part of my vocab, although i censor it ofc, but im sayin, i grew up on this shit and my english evolved around hip hop. Nowadays I ofc try to apply proper english and I do a fair job. But one part of me is tr8 street grew up hustlin bumpin busta rhymes being zup nigga lezz blaze one damn went off there, here it is (and one more) track blessed by the untouchable even by eminem - RA The Rugged Man old school hiphop heads gonna feel this one fo sure the fact that the videos are pretty fucking great doesnt hurt the cause either but my fav off the album is Last Will but Ima end thread with this one Feel it Vinnie Paz speaking that TRUTH!!! RAW RUGGED HIP HOP noone fuck with vinnie, noone.

Im still up for it if you dont want someone else this time.

subtractor will do it sylenth1 too.

benzos are in fact great medication, its just so damn hard to handle since there are a myriad of problems with benzos. They are addictive. Some will never get addicted, though, and most people actually contrary to popular belief, do NOT get addicted. Anyway, they usually get subscribed Klonpin (Klonazepam)/Rivotril and take their daily dosage, and all is fine. No significant dosage increase is required on klonopin due to its long half life, but once they want to stop- if youre addicted or not doesnt matter, you can get the worst case of Benzo-Withdrawal-Syndrome and it can last for years with no other treatment than other benzos. Diazepam is usually the "taper" drug to come off Xanax and Klonpin. But this doesnt always work, because its your doctor who have to make all these choices. Ive seen BZD-WS on people and its sickening, and theyve taken only prescribed dose, no addiction per-se, the thing is, sometimes they take it for 20-30 years. At that point I strongly recommend you just simply stay on it - cause you would die before your synapses are back in working normal order. There are other problems with benzos too, the tolerance. If you feel like your upping your dosage lets say on a weekly basis - ur best bet is to stop immediately and try other benzos (there are quite a few, although Klonopin seems to be the preferred benzo for "general psychiatric treatment" on various different symtoms . HPPD even. In any case, I wouldnt recommend benzos unless you really are having suicidal thoughts. Try everything else beforehand. Meditation, mindfullness and yoga are all valid and supported ways of working through your DP/DR if that is your main syndrome - or even tinnitus and HPPD. edit: the antiepileptic drug Keppra has proven significant improvement in patients with HPPD with DP/DR as their main symtoms. Sadly in Swe, only doctors working exclusively with Epilepsy can prescribe it - and HPPD is VERY rarely even known in Sweden. There are THREE specialists in the country who treat HPPD, and its almost impossible to get remissions to them.

ive had that exact same thing since i was a kid. saw bubbly floaters everywhere and got so used to them i dont see them hardly anymore. HPPD is indeed an entirely other subject. Ive had HPPD affect me in hugely negative ways in terms of DP/DR and Ive suffered since 2000. But you get used to most things in life.

After 9/11 I got into the "truth movement" and saw all the documentarys etc and all the followup, for years, on ATS forums. I still dont know what to believe regarding that. However, it triggered an interested and it became a hobby. Sain or not sain is debatable, but it became a hobby. I engulfed myself in documentaries, from people like david icke, jordan maxwell, and many many more. These days, last couple years, Ivent spent much time into this conspiracy thing cause i really dont care. If Reptilians are controlling us or not, i mean, its irrelevant. Sure, if all this was indeed true and spread around the world, thatd be awesome, but it doesnt really matter since i really dont care. I could die tomorrow and my only care would be my mom. So afraid of death, im as far from it you can be. So yeah, about 10 years I dwelled in that stuff, not deep enough to the real whacky theories, but more the mainline theories. I also developed a strong interest in science and stuff regarding the space program. There are particularirily one theory that still cannot be debunked, and its this one. I dont know what to believe here either. 50/50. But he surely seems and acts truthful, painfully truthful as he holds back tears alot, and he is also sick and close to death - its hard to believe that he is lying. At the other end its very hard to believe he had a gunfight with foul smelling aliens. For documentary recommendations just ask!

joking? Dancing Galaxy and Another World are way better;) but lets agree to disagree in any regard, its truly not a bad album and very worthy of ones collection, so gz to Rotwang thumbs up most def.

Youre an official artist now, get used to it!

most of you will probably hate this, but im very emo so. Fuckit. Im proud of it.... Always loved the 80s rock ballads as a kid too. and im not that into growling, but the melodies just does it for me. Its why I love Soilwork and Linkin Park too. Not just amazing lyrics but amazing melodies....its all about the melodies for me. theyre surprisingly good live too. Were. RIP. (not death just not group anymore) this i consider just as good as AP and/or Simon P.

is that you? Str8 gangsta thats just fucked up man but ur hilarious

Damn, that month flew by. So end of the road at 50 dollars. And I really dont have a clue exactly what to do yet, but the money isnt gone, so I still await suggestions! The custom design bit, tell me more about what you mean, Penzoline!

this is just for bragging rights and e-peen length. I did a quick test now at http://typing-speed-test.aoeu.eu/ and came up at 83 WPM. It says I beat or equal 95,25% of all. So I suppose "all" means all who has used that site, and i have no idea how many that is, so that score might be low or high I have no clue.

but the album version is alot better.